One of my closest friends is also my ex-boyfriend. He is in a relationship with a girl he loves a lot and has been with on and off for years. He is also cheating on her regularly. With me.\r
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This isn't my secret. \r
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My secret is I found his online dating profile. Looking for men. To perform oral sex on and receive oral sex from. I will never tell anyone, and never tell him, because it would humilate him.\r
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I have no problem with homosexuality or bisexuality, and have close friends who are openly gay, but finding this out makes me sick. It makes me worry about him. It makes me curious. I think he's confused about so much more than just his relationship with his girlfriend.\r
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I want to know if he just has the profile, or if he has ever had any of these experiences with other men. He has told me he likes how penises look, and that he would love to have a 3some with another guy to watch me with him, but never has come as far as to say that he likes guys himself, wants to be with a guy sexually one-on-one, is pursuing this himself. He's so dominant sexually, I'm surprised he wants to be the one dominated by another man.. I'm very accepting and encouraging when he talks like that though, in hopes he will tell me the whole story, but he never has. I don't think he ever will. \r
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My secret is I know his secret, but I can't tell him and won't tell anyone and it's starting to eat away at me.
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