I am married to a woman that loves me with her entire heart but I feel like I am just waiting for her to see how much of a screw up I am. I am affraid she will leave me. The only thing is she has been with me for over 20 years and I come home every day thinking she will be gone. The sad thing is I think I deserve it. Add comment

ok so theres this guy who i really fell in love with. we went out for about 2 years but its been off and on. i loved him so much there was a time where i was in an emo stage and he was there for me. This is a bit creepy but once i told him i loved him so much that i cut myself for him a millon times. he help me go through it and we made love. he would always tell me how much he loved me but that was lie. i found out he cheated on my with my "backstabbing slut of a best friend". so i wanted to get him back so i slept with his best friend aka my best friend's brother. and this is a big mistake or possibily good thing i am going back out with him. but...i dont know if its right??? Add comment

I am in love with my first true love. We are both married and we met 2 years ago. I can't help it but I love him. My kids are adults but he has one child 17 at home so I convinced him not to leave so he didn't. now he is changed because his 17 year old is being 17.I am trying to let him go but I can't. Add comment

i have had the most humongous crush on you ever since i first laid eyes on you. i LOOOVE your voice & think it's soooo damn sexy! that's what caught my attention & reeled me in from the very first moment! oh, god! that voice! i would do you in a heartbeat, even tho i know you're married & have a new baby. in fact, that's the ONLY reason i've never tried to come on to you - jus cuz you seem so happy in your marriage & w/your child, committed to your wife. …yet, you ARE a man, and let’s be serious here: not too many men will actually, if presented the chance, stay faithful & not accept a little new nookie if they really thought no one would find out about it. \r\n
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i don’t wanna be a homewrecker, just your secret piece on the side; and i sometimes idly wonder if i could get you if i really wanted to, if i REALLY pursued you. being a scorpio thru & thru, if i want something (or someone), i can be very persistent, relentless, and particularly, patient, as i subtly, quietly, deliberately go about working from several angles to get exactly what i want, no matter what. not at all pushy, not outrightly or blatantly aggressive; yet effectively working, doing, accomplishing. but i have too much respect for your marriage & life to even go there. plus i dunno if i’m even your type. would you want me, even just a little bit? would you have even the slightest bit of interest in me? i certainly think so; but then again, maybe i’m actually just projecting my OWN feelings, wants, desires onto you. \r\n
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yes, i admit - i have often thought of seducing you, at least giving it a try. nsa – would you be interested? would you let me rock your world, make you come, give you pleasure? then give me the same in return, our bodies writhing with fervent intensity? hell, if i ever picked up on even the SLIGHTEST hint that you'd be down, boy, i'd screw you like there was no tomorrow! i’m jus real leery of even going there, tho, b/c what if someone found out? are you discreet enuff? do you like to talk, like to brag, like to share all your personal bizness? would you be careful & safe & cautious to make sure no one found out? i don’t know you well enuff to know, to be sure you’d keep it under wraps, & that would be VERY important to me, knowing how gossip could get started & flare outta control in our little area. i abso-frickin-lutely DREAD that ever happening! \r\n
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i wouldn't even want a relationship or anything serious. just to screw. and for you to talk to me during. yes, i think you are a handsome guy (plus you have the most gorgeous eyelashes!), but i often fantasize about screwing you just to hear your voice - talkin dirrrty to me, tellin me what to do, sayin my name, moanin, anything! as long as i could just hear your voice, you talkin to me, i'd screw you just for that! just to hear that sexy-ass voice of yours in my ear, enthralling me, encapsulating me, wrapping itself around me as i wrap myself around you, just becoming LOST in it, that voice. god! i am so so so into you, boy!!!!!! \r\n
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every time i see you, every time we say hello to each other, every time we exchange even the most meaningless bits of conversation: i think wicked thoughts cuz your voice, your utterly amazing, incredible voice…i hear it, and i am undone. Add comment

I'm a 15 year old girl who's possibly Inlove with a 24 year old woman, who goes to my Church. I'v only known her for so long and yet, I have these strong feelings for her. What really kills me is that I can't do anything about it. She's a christian and I'm trying to be a christian, but these feelings, I can't just get baptised and hope for it to go away. Not only that, but the huge age difference. To me it doesn't matter, but the law does. My whole life I imagined myself getting married to a rich handsome man, but Everysince i moved to Washington and met Elizabeth(the 24 year old woman), I saw her differently then I see other girls. Basicly, i think of her the way I'm suppose to think about a guy. Man my love life is mess and screwed up. Add comment

ok so i was in love with him. even though we were from different faiths. that dint stop us initially. but then something happened that shouldnt have. no we dint have sex! but a family disaster of sorts took place. \r\n
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so we are back to being just friends. but i still love him. he was the man for me. our likes, dislikes, we were perfect together! i dont know if we will ever get together but i so wanna hate that bitch he is with now. i mean what was he thinking? \r\n
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she is so duh. she doesnt get him. she doesnt even know what things he likes! \r\n
so what about us. cant he give us a chance again? \r\n
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i know i would. \r\n
what do you think i should do?\r\n
forget about him? \r\n
i dont know what to do... Add comment

I used to think net-relationship is so lame because I don't know what Love is??? Many times i wondered, how can two people (online) falling in love without seeing each other (in real life) of spending time together. With love, you can not see it, or touch it, but can be felt with it. That's what love is all about (i think). How can you tell if you are in LOVE? Well, i don't know, but sometimes I feel like there is a magic arrow that shoot into my heart. It's an uneasy feeling, but it feels good (sometimes). have any of you ever felt that way before? (Don't lie now) hehe.... :-)) Anyway, here's my SAD LOVE STORY!!!\r\n
\r\nOne summer afternoon, i posted my profile at some matrimonial site, days past i got many proposals, but none of them clicked. One evening i saw someone from my same State, contacted me. I went thru his pofile, liked it, and accepted the proposal. The guy named ......, Thou he was from my same state but he lived in the United States of America that time. the distance between us was like from Earth to Moon, so was difficult for us to meet.\r\n
\r\nThe very same day i received an e-mail, it was his. He wanted to know about ME. I wrote everything, rather sent him my detailed Bio-data and a snap. And u know, i forgot to attach the snap :-D. Suddenly i received another e mail, saying "you forgot to attach ur snap". I was like Oh my God!! " What an instant reply". I was kinda impressed, then i attached the file, and the SILSILA began, we started chatting on .....messenger, write/reply emails everyday for approx. 5 weeks.\r\n
\r\nOne day he said rather asked..."My family wants to see you". Hmm... now i handed his Bio-data to my dad, he liked it, then both the families contacted each other, and finally the day came when i was suppose to see his family, and the BAD part was he was not coming to see me as he recently shifted to Bangalore and was not getting any off. Still i agreed, we went to Jaipur (his home town) and everything was like so new to me, let me tell u a secret...(i was very nervous), he cheered me up over the chat and said not to worry, everything will be fine. Now it was 5:30 in the evening and his family members came (we were at my uncle's place), i prayed and faced the interview (he called it as an interview....a matrimonial interview). I was so happy to see his family, they were all good, but i would let out one secret :-) ( i didn't liked her sister). I don;t know why? Whatever everything went fine and they left... after few hours we too left. We were on the way and it started raining heavily, and i cought cold, a severe one! We reached home around 2300hrs. Two days past there was no reply from their side, everyone was like why didn't they called? My mum asked dad to call his parents just to know their answer, his dad picked the phone and he said sorry the Patrika's (Janm Kundali) are not matching!!\r\nI was very SAD.....it happens rite??? \r\n
\r\nAfter a week i found him online again.... i felt he did not wanted to talk or whatever, i msgd him hello, he replied and he was sorry, but i was curious to know the reason....coz for we youngsters janm kundali's is no big deal.... he said, u r far way too good, but a little over weighted (more than him, he was kinda skinny). After that we never talked.\r\nTwo months passed and i received his e-mail saying what if we are not married we can still be in touch with each other, why not like good friends?? I agreed, time passed we use to exchange e-mails regularly, he called me everyday and we like best of friends, One night he called and said "I started Liking you".\r\n
\r\nIt was Feb.14th, Yes Valentine's Day!!!, i got nothing to do that day, i went online it was his e-mail with a beautiful card.....Happy Valentine's Day to Each Other!!!!.\r\n
\r\nThe next day he called....and i asked how was his val day? He said i don't have anyone in particular to go out with...so then i made my first move...i said i too started liking you...\r\n
\r\nNow i was his "So called Girl friend". We continued chatting and calling each other. I had a wonderful time chatting with him, days past i said I Love You!!! and asked him "Do you like me for real?" Don't know how i come up with that question, but i really like the result. He told me he likes me for REAL, i was shocked at the same time happy, but he said i do like you...but still need time to think. Since that day i am waiting for him....................\r\n
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Today I got the following mail from one of the Islamic mailing lists I have subscribed to:

'''May Allah help you to wake up after going through my mail and start working for the cause of Deen.
Please watch these videos in sequence.
1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-jLUlG_lRc
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_Bkqwzl_Yg

Now please watch these videos in series patiently.
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dawah+or+destruction%2Bdeedat&search=Search

May Allah guide us all to strive in the cause of Islam'''

 

I think if we can ban/remove these types of videos, that alone can bring harmony among different religion and contribute to the world peace.

I being a convert, and experienced both Hinduism and Islam in my society, I have a very different views on these videos and what scholars write in the books. And I would label this thread/conversation as more of a politics which will bring more hatred in us, than anything to do with religion. What faith/imaan these videos can bring into us ??

We (including me) generally, accept only those facts which justifies our society, culture and religion, and ignore all the rest. How many of us (muslims) have condemned some of the heinous acts committed by Islamic terrorism. There are tons of videos out there about Islamic terrorism, but I have never seen a single video on any islamic mailing list. And even if we know, we simply condemn them, by labeling them as fake, and made up.

A statement can give different meaning in different context, same applies to Qur'anic verses also. The videos does not show the occassion on which those statements were made.

As far as the Gujarat is concerned, no one media/muslims/Govt./Commission, talk about the Godhra case, where the train was allegedly burnt by a group of Muslims. We just talk about consequences after that, and spread more hatered among each other.

As far as Hindus are concerned, I am proud of the nation, which had never attacked any country in the past 1500 years. Whose teachings (shirk, monotheism set apart), teach non-violence and majority Hindus tries to follow that. It is remarkable, for instance, that the only country on earth where the Jewish people have lived for centuries and never experienced a single episode of anti-Semitism is India.

And lastly, most of us mis-interpret Hinduism itself, we consider Hinduism as a religion, but Hinduism is a nationalism concept, and has nothing to do with religion. A Hindu does not necessarily follow Ram, or is interested in Ram janma bhumi (Ram's birth place). Everyone who lives in India is a Hindu, A sikh is a Hindu, so is a Jain or Buddhist, even though they are different religions.

I just want to say that we should avoid spreading these types of videos, without having the full knowledge about the politics, economics, and philosophies of different people.

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I just sit at home and write code, create websites and try out new stuff with all the programming language I know.\r\n
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Everyone says that I'm crazy and that I should socialize and do stuff like that. I don't understand what pleasure people get by just wasting time. Every time I write some new modules and make new websites, I get pleasure seeing my hard work take shape.\r\n
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I don't think anything is wrong with me. All I thing is that people are brain washed and just do what other people do. Well screw them!!\r\n
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That's it!! I've confessed!! Now what's my penance!?!? :P Add comment

My boss hates me. He keeps forcing me to do work that I'm not even supposed to do. Its so irritating. I can't take this kind of torture. All he does is make my appear like his slave and never shows any respect.\r\n
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The other day he told to go and buy lunch for him. I'm his secretary, and he makes me do work of an office boy. Its getting to my head. I dunno how to say no to him. I can't risk losing this job. It's the only one I have and my family needs the meager income that I get. My husband does not have a high paying job, and my salary is much lower than his.\r\n
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We just manage to earn enough to pay the monthly bills and provide sufficient for our two children.\r\n
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My boss made a pass at me yesterday. I did not know how to react. What does he think of himself? I don't understand what to do now. If I tell my husband he might over react and do something really bad. Life is so disgusting. I'm just staying alive for my children. I love them too much. Add comment