I'm a coward, because I really should just tell you. I still love you, and I miss you. I'm trying to be your friend because I know it is the only way we can be in each others lives - also, you have a boyfriend. It seems pretty serious, and I don't want to mess with that. But I do still love you, and hanging out with you is so difficult sometimes, and it seems like it might be impossible to resist kissing you. But I've managed so far, and hopefully I can hold off these feelings until they go away completely. But yeah, I love you and I miss you, and I'm jealous of your boyfriend. Sorry.