Here's what I posted all over public confession boards hours before I became a jackpot winning multi-millionaire with the Texas Lotto ticket I bought:

Look, I expect to experience a lifestyle of lavish affluence via a jackpot lotto win. Why? Because I want to. I have nothing left to experience now but extreme wealth. First, I wanted a boyfriend, I tried love, I tried marriage, I have kids, I became a writer- now I want to experience a lifestyle of extreme lavish affluence and I want to do it by buying a quickpick Lotto Texas ticket. I want to know what its like to win a lot- a multimillion dollar jackpot- of money. What is the process? What happens technically? And what does it FEEL like? I want to know. I want to experience it. I always experience everything that comes in my mind and I've ever set my heart on. That's because I expect to. If it's in my mind, I know it's going to happen. All I have to do is write it down and talk about it and I'll experience it. So…what happens? I'll accept my experience now please.